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I am compelled to write this post because of a previous post I wrote entitled, One Truth The Enemy Doesn’t Want You To Know. In that post, I mentioned mental illness pertaining to identity in Christ. I am writing this article to ‘clear up’ what I said in that post; really explain more of what I meant. I will also share some of my experiences with mental illness.
When I first started blogging, I wrote some about my mental illness. I shared that I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 13 years old. I am close to 40 now, so this has been my entire life.
Explaining here what I believe of mental illness, I do not want to condemn anyone in any way. I am still on medication. I still struggle with things. But I have found freedom and am grateful to the Lord for my stable mind.
If you have been a Christian for any amount of time, I am sure you have struggled with your thought life. The enemy will throw any type of negative thought or temptation your way if he thinks there is even a 1 percent chance you will take the bait. Because you have negative thoughts, doesn’t mean that you have a mental illness. Everyone, Christian or not has negative thoughts at some point in their life. People with mental illness struggle with so much more than negative thoughts. At times, it is a barrage of negative thoughts, voices, and anxiety. I believe it is easier for the enemy to gain ground in a person’s life with mental illness through negative thoughts and feelings because we feel more intensely.
I read a book by Mel Bond entitled, If It’s Not Good It’s Not God. He writes that all bad situations come from the enemy, as the title implies. If you want to check out the book, you can purchase it here on Kindle.
I will not go into a book review, but it was very good. You can leave a comment or email me if you are interested in a book review. The point of mentioning the book is the title. God is a good God. He promises good things to His people. That being said, we live in a world full of sin. People hurt people and many don’t want to follow laws, let alone treat their neighbor right or obey Biblical principles.
Being that God is good, I don’t believe mental illness is from Him. Bipolar disorder, Schizophrenia, Borderline personality disorder, schizoaffective disorder, and other mental illnesses are not from the hand of the God I serve. I believe they are curses from the enemy of our souls to torment us. Mental illness runs in families and most times (if not all of the time), is passed down from a parent or grandparent who has it.
Back to what I stated at the beginning of this article: I am not here to condemn anyone. I don’t know everything, but am here to share what I have learned and experienced.
As I mentioned, I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder when I was very young: 13. After being on medication and in therapy for several years, I confessed to a counselor, an instance of abuse that happened when I was around 7 years old. This was the first time I told anyone about what happened, but I thought of what happened to me constantly for many years. I was around 21 years old when I told that counselor what happened to me, and I told her I believed I was dealing with PTSD, not Bipolar Disorder. Now, after mentioning this, I was diagnosed with PTSD as well.
Labels, and what we believe about ourselves have power. The Bible says, “For as he thinks in his heart, so is he.” (Proverbs 23:7a, NKJV) What others project on us as we are in the formative years of life has a lasting effect on us, and some people never get over the negative ways they were spoken to or treated as children. I am not suggesting that because I was diagnosed with mental disorders or believed the diagnoses, thus I took them on. Mental illness runs in my family, and I have relatives with bipolar disorder. I do believe that people calling me crazy and treating me as if I can’t take care of myself made my mental state worse.
There is so much I could say that won’t all be discussed in this post. I will be bringing more posts on taking care of yourself with a mental illness and such articles. I know that mental illnesses are real diseases, but I do not think that medication should be pushed down peoples’ throats without treating the whole person. Mental illnesses are real diseases, just as diabetes and various other physical ailments are real. these diseases wreck peoples’ lives and make it difficult to live life in freedom.
Deliverance is real too! I believe there is power in the blood of Jesus, the name of Jesus, the Word of God, prayer, and the laying on of hands. If you are a Christian, you should believe in deliverance as well. Is it God’s will to deliver every single person with mental illness? I do not know. If you’d asked me several years ago, I would’ve told you yes. As of now, I have prayed for deliverance countless times, I’ve traveled far to visit deliverance ministries. I have tried weaning myself off of medication after visiting a deliverance ministry that I watched others get their healing at. Last year, I decided not to try going off my medication again, after weaning off was a fail. I sort of decided that Bipolar disorder is my thorn (see 2 Corinthians 12:7-9).
I read another really good book that I am keeping close: Deliverance And Spiritual Warfare Manual by John Eckhardt. John Eckhardt has been in the ministry of deliverance and healing for a number of years. Reading this book opened my eyes to the origin of some diseases and various other spiritual problems that plague people, and practical steps to deliverance. If you are interested in that book, it’s available here. I highly recommend it, if you are studying spiritual warfare and deliverance.
I am grateful that there is medication for me, and it is working. I am grateful for the Word of God and the presence of the Lord. I am grateful for healthy food and supplements. I am grateful for my supportive family. I am grateful for the Lord’s purpose for my life. I am blessed to have the Lord taking care of me and to be in a healthy environment.
Mental illness does not have to define you! You can be on medication, even be seeing a therapist or counselor, and live a normal, healthy life. Some of the things people without a mental illness do may be harder for you, but even so-called normal people have challenges to overcome. You can choose to tell people of your mental illness as a part of your testimony of Christ, or you can choose to hide it from people you meet. That is totally up to you, and either choice is fine, but your diagnosis and your struggle are NOT your identity.
Father, I pray for every person reading this who has a mental illness. I pray for peace and joy over their lives. I ask you to open their eyes of understanding concerning their mental state. I ask that you take away confusion, depression, and the spirit of infirmity. I know you are a healer! I know you are a deliverer! Father, I pray that every person reading this immerses themselves in your Word, to find freedom. For everyone reading this who knows of someone who has a mental illness and isn’t sure how to help them, I pray you give them Wisdom. I pray they pray. Father, thank you for the cross and blood of Jesus!
In Jesus name,