I don’t want to be one who makes New Year’s resolutions just because it’s a new year and I feel compelled to change because the calendar year did. Though, I do believe it is important to reflect and make goals. 2019 has been a hard year, but a good year. I worked for the first half of the year until I gave birth to my third child. I started my blog. I have learned a lot about the business of blogging! I got serious about my YouTube channel… It’s been good, but I want 2020 to be even better!
I now have 7 Christmases under my belt and I am used to the process, but I never want to lose the meaning and the wonder of the season. Christ is everything and this year, my relationship with Him has been tested. I shared this before, but pregnancy for me is like a spiritual fight. My pregnancy with Manasseh was pretty good, but there were a couple of health problems I was uncertain about and I sought the Lord for peace and healing. He gave me both! Manasseh was born healthy and labor and delivery went well.
One thing that not only me but all of us have to come to terms with is that we will never know all we want to know and that we are not in control of life. Doctors don’t know just how our hearts beat, scientifically. It’s the Lord’s call to keep each of us alive another day or not. I never want to lose that awe of His power and forget that I am His dearly beloved.
New Year’s resolutions: Well, I have already set a couple of goals to improve myself and my life. I don’t want to share them here yet. I am still organizing and planning. I turned 35 this year and now have three babies as well as my husband depending on me to do my best and go beyond what I ever thought I could do!
Aside from my main ‘get your stuff together’ goals for 2020, I will be reading more self-improvement/self-help books. I read some this year, but I need to make it a regular happening. As I am an avid reader, I do read every day, but I have focused on fiction for the past few months and got sort of complacent with my personal growth. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with reading fiction, but I may need to stay away from it for a while so as not to lose myself in the escapism of the stories. That’s what I tend to do. I gotta stay focused!
If you’ve been following me for a while, you know I’ve been making it through the Old Testament. I still am not done! I am more than halfway through the book of Psalms and I am still going to finish! I have tried and quit a couple of times before, but I will make it through this time, though it is taking me longer than I wanted to. Overall, I want to strengthen my relationship with the Lord and be more diligent in reading and studying the Word, then obeying what He commands me to do. This year, I have learned more to accept the Lord’s grace and rely on His forgiveness. Also, I have learned to release bitterness and forgive others!
Something that I thought I was doing well is teaching my kids about Jesus. And I still think they have no excuse with all of the prayer and Bible reading that goes on in our house. But I recently learned that my oldest believes his teacher over me. He believes that Santa comes and brings presents to our house, though I have told him over and over that it’s not true. That really disappoints me. So I may let him see me wrap the presents this year and put them under the tree myself. I don’t want my kids to believe that lie. Also, he disappointed me to my core when he couldn’t tell me that Christmas is about Jesus! He said Joseph! I asked him again and he said gifts! So I have to reassess and reinforce how I teach my kids about the Lord and keep them in constant prayer, not to be influenced by the World over what my husband and I are teaching them at home.
I did not celebrate Christmas before I met my husband. I just really, had no reason. So once I received Christ and started a family, my whole life changed, now I’ve got great reason to live and thrive. I want 2020 to be a year of thriving! I am going for gold! I am so grateful for the Lord’s presence in my life and I want to honor Him by taking full advantage of the life He has given me, as well as create a better future for my beautiful babies.
I will update you all on the changes in my life and the goals I achieve as everything comes to pass. God bless you, and Merry Christmas!