I haven’t told a Jesus testimony in awhile. Lately, I’ve felt prompted to. There’s so much I could say about how the Lord has been good. At first, I thought I should tell my testimony of salvation. Then it got stuck in my head that God has been my provider and I should talk about His provision.
Over the years, in so many ways the Lord has provided. I am sure he’s not done, but He has just begun! First, before I start to tell of His goodness, I must specify the Lord’s name, Jehovah Jireh. The Lord Will Provide, just as He provided a sacrifice for Abraham in Genesis 22 when the Lord asked him to sacrifice his son.
When some hear the Lord is a provider, they may think of financial provision. Yes, the Lord will provide for us financially. He said he would in His word and I am a testimony to that. Though, there are many ways the Lord provides every day!
When I first trusted the Lord to be my Savior, I wasn’t sure what to expect from Him. He knew that, and I did go to Him in prayer. I totally started over. I was living in a new city, was starting a new family, a new way of life. I was ready but unsure, and I had a little doubt. I asked the Lord to show me a sign that I had made the right decision. I won’t share here, what that sign was, but indeed He showed me a sign and at times, when my faith gets a little shaky, I remember what He showed me back then.
God is so good! He didn’t need to appease my request. But He saw my shaky faith and answered my prayer that day. The Lord has provided emotionally, relationally, spiritually, physically, financially. I started with nothing and I am not rich, financially. But spiritually, I see myself as a rich woman. There have been times I’ve had more than at other times. But in every season, the Lord has provided just what my family has needed.
Early on in my marriage, my husband got laid off. At that time he knew layoffs were happening at his job and he was nervous about it. At the time, his faith was stronger than mine, being that I was a new believer. He asked the Lord to let His will be done. If He wanted him there, to let him keep his job and if not, provide a way for him to be in ministry. My husband came home from work and told me his boss had laid him off. The next day we went to church and the youth pastor asked him to start in ministry with the kids. Soon after, I started teaching Sunday school. We survived off of my husband’s unemployment for a year and it wasn’t much. But every time we were lacking something and weren’t sure how it was going to come, the Lord made a way for us. Early on in my walk with Christ, I saw His supernatural hand of provision. In His Word, he says he will provide when we serve Him!
“But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:19 (KJV)
“If we are faithless, He remains faithful—for he cannot deny himself.” – 2 Timothy 2:13 (ESV)
Last year was a Winter season for my family. No, I’m not talking about the end of the year when it got really cold and snow was on the ground. I mean spiritually, financially we had a season in which we were just down. The whole year, we were behind on our bills and hours were cut at my husband’s job. I started working, but only at the end of the Summer and the hours I was working weren’t enough. At all. I also was depressed for much of the year and all I could do to make it through the days was pray.
Right after Thanksgiving, I found out I was pregnant. I knew that I was going to need to get a job to help us catch up on bills we were behind on and prepare for another baby. Christmas was coming and we had very little. The kids kept asking about the tree and what gifts they were going to get. We didn’t say much to them, except that we didn’t know yet.
Christmas 2018 was a miracle for my family. There was no way we were going to buy gifts for the kids, but the Lord provided. A sister in Christ at one church we attend asked us to give the sizes of each member of our family. She went out and bought gifts for each of us and we were grateful beyond words. We didn’t ask for those things, but the Lord provided. Another fellow believer we knew came to us and gave a gift card that was enough to get the rest of the gifts for our kids. These loving fellow believers were obedient to the Lord and were His instruments that provided Christmas for our children. The 25th was getting close. We still didn’t have a tree and thought that we probably were just going to go without one. My husband kept saying we couldn’t afford one, but I looked online anyway. I was trying to find a very cheap tree. Maybe we could find one that was twenty or thirty dollars and scrounge up the money at the last minute.
I looked, and there was a tree farm asking if there was anyone in need who couldn’t afford a tree for their family that year. They had extra trees that didn’t sell. I contacted them and the next day, we went and picked up our tree. My son came home from school, saw the tree and was excited to finally have his tree.
For my family, Christmas is not about the stuff. It is about Jesus. My husband and I teach our kids that and we honor Christ on that day before any gifts are opened. But the Lord saw we had nothing and provided everything for our kids that we weren’t able. To me, that means, He cares about our Christmas holiday. This will forever be a memory for my husband and me of the Lord’s provision. The kids didn’t know we had nothing. Maybe someday when they get older, we tell them as a testimony of the Lord’s goodness.
January came and I still hadn’t found a job. I wanted to start work before I started showing. I applied to probably about twenty different jobs. I heard back from a few, but still no job offers. I prayed and asked the Lord to provide a job before the end of January and he did! I actually got an offer for a job from the agency that I had previously had a client with. I went and met them and started work that next week, in the middle of the month!
2019 had been a breakthrough year for us. Winter turned into Spring and Summer. I worked until the baby was due, my husband got more hours at his job and both my husband and I are working on projects to build our own businesses so that we won’t have to go to work outside of the house.
“For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favor is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.” Psalm 30:5 (KJV)
This is just some of the Lord’s goodness I have shared with you. I can’t tell you my whole story. I’d be writing for days! I expect more from my God in the future, I know Him as a provider and I know He is faithful. There’s no way He is done showing me His goodness and faithfulness. I trust Him to stay the same because:
“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.” Hebrews 13:8 (NIV)